Don’t just want it, Create YOUR Bliss!!!

For me, I create my bliss through a thought, patience, emotion, imagination, a heavenly nudge, and prayer.  I have learned how to literally be a co-creator with God.

My favorite example of this is the day I became the owner of my very own horse. It’s my absolute favorite manifestation moment!

As I remember, my very first childhood yearning was not just wanting a horse someday, I needed my own horse!  This powerful thought and hearts yearning came to me most days throughout my life.

I wanted to so badly, at times it hurt.  In quiet moments, silent tears welled up in my eyes as I dreamed of flying free on the back of my trusty steed far away from the pain of the present moment.  In my minds eye, we were of one mind and heart as we ran free from my crushing fears.

As I grew from child to adult, then with children of my own, some days this dream felt so far away.

Day after day as I dealt with the emotional scars from years of abuse, my body, heart, and mind felt pressed down, as if I was in a continual wine press. With every breath and thought, my mind seemed to be filled with pain, doubt, and worry.

That winter, the bitterness of life’s reality seemed as freezing and dark as were the days.  The cold stung like a thousand pins into my soul.  I worried that the new realities of our new future without a husband and father would forever destroy all hope for my young children’s happily ever after.

At times, I got lost in thought as I dreamed of carefree moments of me and my horse, riding on the wild western plains.  The romantic in me may have put a soundtrack, sunset and a field of yellow wild flowers in there too.

At times, this thought was the only thread of life I clung to as I lived within the cage of my own heart and mind.

As the cold months of winter drew on, it seemed my life closely matched the dark, harsh, freezing weather.

But just as spring always does, the warmth of the sun slowly thawed the frozen ground and made way for fresh new grass and spring buds. And just like the weather- my life also began to change with a renewal of hope. I could now see a life full of unlimited potential for growth and happiness.

This was my time to fulfill all my dreams, starting with owning a horse.

Across the street from my new home, lay a large blanket of fresh grass starting to grow, begging me to come play.

But I was still poor in every way.  I was extremely busy raising my children and attending school. I had chronic illnesses that left me tired and sleepless and I didn’t have a steady income. How could I afford a horse, it’s food, and the boarding?

But regardless of my situation, I felt the nudge to ask God for this favor and blessing. So I did.  I asked him with complete confidence that He would give me what I felt I had to ask for. I knew it was right but I just didn’t know how it would all work out.

The next afternoon, I got a call from a friend. She told me about a horse for sale just a few miles away from where I was living. The owners had gotten in an car accident a couple years earlier. They had broken their backs and sadly they hadn’t healed enough to continue riding and needed to find their favorite pet a new, loving home.

After I learned where the horse was, I immediately loaded up my kids and drove to see the horse. As my eyes caught site of him, tears began to fall down my cheeks as I stared at the horse from my dreams.  It was the exact horse I had imagined for all those years.

“God is so good to me!” I thought, but now I needed the money and a place to keep the horse.

So, I said another prayer as I drove home.

As I asked, I remembered my neighbor, who I had never met, had moved with a job transfer out of the state.  They needed help keeping the yard up while they found renters for their home.

I called them and explained my situation.  We came up with an agreement. In exchange for my help around the yard, they allowed me use their large pasture and barn to board my horse.

Now I needed the money to pay for the horse. I said another prayer and as I did, I remembered a small savings account that was just enough to pay for the horse and a few other things I needed for my kids.

The next day, with cash in hand, I went to the owner of the horse.  He, seeing my situation and need, also gave me all the equipment I would need to tend and ride my new horse.

You can’t imagine the exhilaration and joy I felt when I stroked the face of my new horse!

I named my trusty steed Dusty. He and I ran in the field of flowers and into the sunset to my heart’s content for the next 2 years. That was the most beautiful time of my life.

I’m so grateful for a God who cared about me and you. He knows our needs and desires! He did- and continues to- bless me with more than I could have ever dreamed possible. These blessings are beyond my comprehension to understand the “how.”  But I do know “He will.”

He has continually blessed me with the healing, joy, and peace I need at that time. I’ve discovered the secret to getting this gift is to get really good at listening to that nudge and then acting on it.  I also need to do my best to be a good, kind, and loving person.  To be open, pay attention, and listen to the nudge that acts as my guide.  Then, ask God with complete trust and faith that what I’ve been asked to pray for will come at the perfect time and place for me.

As you grow and develop in this gift, be patient and willing to listen, change, and grow.  Allow it to be your guide as you become the best version of yourself!